New year, new struggles

(moved from the old diary-type thing)

I need to move out. My patience with my parents is running thin. When it comes to my friends, especially those they think are gay, I'm still – after being out for a pretty damn long time – up against intolerant, unsupportive homophobes. They badmouth my friends, and doing so to my face, insult me.

I've tried to be nice and kept a low profile (didn't mention the gay film festival when I went to visit my friend, didn't tell that one of my best 'Net friends is a lesbian – even a bit of a celebrity in the online gay/les/bi community), but I'm getting tired of hiding parts of myself, of who I am. I want out of here, even if it means I won't get mom's great meals every day, always being broke, or *gasp!* not getting to hang out online every evening.