Friends to lovers?

(moved from the old diary-type thing)

Maybe this is the way to go... from friends to lovers (nope, not talking about "Ignatz the mouse" here)... It happened somewhat accidentally... and for a long time I had no idea this friend, J, was in love with me. I still can't understand why...

I fought back again, tried to convince her I'm not the right one for her. Reasons: I'm an extremely self-centered person, I still have this issue with my parents, and the fact that I told her we might as well go on and make it official, so soon after making up my mind about "Ignatz the mouse", would to an outsider seem that I was settling for "second best". In fact, I'm not settling for anything. I'm not even in love with her – not the way she is... I do love her dearly, as a friend, and a bit more than that ;-)

So this is complicated. But I'm committed to J and will, most likely, stay with her for a long time.