Back to no-life?

(moved from the old diary-type thing)

I'm not sure if I like making new friends... it's always so awkward getting to know new people, meeting them and wondering what they think of me; I always feel like I'm under scrutiny and I don't like that feeling at all.

It's completely different if something "clicks" right away and there's hardly any of the usual tension or awkwardness. It's happened a few times...

Sometimes the Internet is a great help; if I know a person through the 'Net, it's a lot less awkward getting to know them in person. But of course, I'll have to know them pretty well that way, otherwise it's just as difficult as any other beginning.